You've got to start somewhere

Yeah, how to start, or maybe how to end is the question. Yeah, it's late but what the heck. Today seemed weird, I mean the numbers not matching up, the brief nervous sweat. The classics that continue to confront me. Not interested, but what am I interested in.

Generally it feels like wizard of oz, or maybe alice? not really sure. I just know I'm out of sorts. Disassociated from it all. Not even sure what all is.

Points to remember from an uneventful day.
- if you always do what you've done you'll always be who you are.
- you can't try without failure.
- it's all an illusion.
- it's not worth it.
- pain lasts forever.

just more useless stuff that makes no sense.